2022 ACCEPTANCE

 



That was my phone wallpaper in 2022.

Yup, my big goal last year was ACCEPTANCE.

So many things happened in 2022 outside of my plan. I found so many failures, disappointments, rejections, and many hurt feelings. There have been countless tears. I have so many regretting and wish "if I choose it, I could be like this, like that, and any else".

Then in 2022, I was trying so hard to deal with and accept everything that has happened in my life. Been trying to deal with all of those kinds of things as my decision or someone's decision. Learning to accept that everything happens because of Him. Nothing happens without His will. It means that if I regret everything that has happened in my life it means that I regret His choice, isn't it?

Learning to accept that what is best for me is not best for Him yet. 


Then the question is "Is that goal achieved? Am I done dealing with and accepting everything?"


The answer is of course NOT YET.

Cause the process of accepting and dealing with past wounds needs more than a year. It will take years for me to arrive in a situation where I can't only say to myself that "I am fine and everything is alright" but I really visualize that I am totally fine and I am done with everything.

I know time can not heal the wound but I do believe that time can fade it by meeting with someone new or new environment.

Let's grow together, Dila


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